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When all else fail, I wont.

But I did: to myself.

Words flow inevitably but the right things dont fit coz something’s missing.

I did everything; searched for it, fought for it, but to my demise.
Maybe it wasn’t meant for me, I said.

I tried to be better than everyone but realized im doing it for all the wrong reasons: I should’ve been better for myself.

oh love.

Yes yes. I know. I haven’t posted anything for more than a month. It’s a very complicated month for me but it’s good that everything’s settled so here I am again, sharing random thoughts about the world as I see it. Anyhow, thanks for those who are emailing me, you know who you are guys)

After a very long wait, I am finally sharing this chronicle about my vacation in Bangkok, Thailand last June. I’ll be sharing a visual post so please spare me if you think it’s too long. 🙂

While at Changi Terminal 2:

I am very fond of planes so when I was almost at the boarding gate, seeing the tarmac, i captured some photos of different carriers near our gate.



MYANMAR AIRWAYS INTERNATIONAL with another airline at the back:



So me and my travel buddy, Ann, left Singapore past 5pm and arrived in Bangkok around 7pm, local time. We needed to ride a shuttle from the tarmac to the arrival gate because *INSERT REASON HERE* i have no idea. Good thing that when we arrived, cabs and travel companies doing tours can be easily spotted. Since we’re playing the tourist-adventurous game and I felt like Dora the Explorer that time, booked a reservation for a full city tour around Bangkok the following day. After that, we traveled around 45 minutes to our hotel and man, it was not what I’ve expected: It’s waaaay good than how the place look in pictures. It’s called Furama Xclusive-Sathorn along Silom Road, between Chong Nonsi and Sala Daeng MRT station. It’s not as five-star-ish like the MBS, but hey, for a three-star hotel, it’s not bad. Okay, that’s an understatement. Here are some clicks:

After dropping our things and after enjoying how beautiful our room is, we went to a Siam Square to search for dinner. We rode a TUKTUK:

Ended up eating at this noodle house named, well, NOODLE HOUSE:

The following day, we woke up early to go to the nearby market before preparing for our afternoon tour. Here are some snapshots:

It was actually funny coz the time we went there, it’s election season. I was surprised to see election posters like these:

I found out later that day that these posters are from an anti-government group asking people not to vote. Funny way to put it. 🙂

So for our afternoon tour, we went first to the TEMPLE OF THE GOLDEN BUDDHA. Was too busy taking pictures and forgot what our tour guide is telling us about this buddha. One thing I remembered: IT IS OLD. LOL


Here’s a shot of the entire figure:

And these are the inscriptions on the foot. John told us something about the meaning of the inscriptions but again, I was too amazed to listen.

Here’s John, the tour guide by the way,

They also have this jars of coins. The mechanics: you need to buy 20THB worth of coins and then put it one by one to this 113 jars (im not sure) and then you’re supposed to make a wish after. Well I dont see any harm in trying so we tried it.

After that, we explored the area to see well, more buddha figures!

There’s even a spot where there are ancient teachings on how to do Thai Massage:

What I just love about the place is how the palace grounds made me feel. I felt im in their ancient civilization-or something to that effect.

Here are more photos of the place:


Run and Tell

Posted: July 14, 2011 in JUST ME
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So after shifting to our new place, I have decided to get back to running. So last night, I geared up and started jogging again.


So I jogged for almost an hour on this route:


While jogging, I noticed this cute guy jogging in front of me. I ran passed him and while i walk and rested for a while, he ran passed me, then i ran passed him again , which happened for around 3 more times. When he ran and made a u-turn, we were able to see each other and i smiled a little. After that, just continued my running. So much for the first day.


But what surprised me was when i got home, someone familiar messaged me thru Grindr (Grindr is a mobile app that connects LGBT people to people who are near them). Look at our exchange of message:



So I was talking to him casually when he said:



Im feeling I’ll still see him on my next run. 🙂

Here I am again. Staring at a blank page. I don’t know where to start but there’s one thing I am sure of: after months, years of everything, I’m sure he’s the only one who can make me feel this way. We knew each other years back but were only given milimoments to talk. Life isn’t fair.

I’m changing for the better: one step at a time. After that night with him, (t’was months back) I know, it’s only him my heart beats for. Call me cheesy or whatever you want to but hey, I’m struck by love’s arrow. And I know no matter how many relationships he’ve had, I’ll still be here waiting for him. I know he doesn’t know about how strong my feelings are but hey, this is something real. I don’t care if he’s in a relationship now or if he’ll be in two or gazillion more relationships. I’m changing for the better: a better me, so that when I get back, he can at least have a reason to consider.

Oh shoot. I’m totally pointless. Or am I just really in love? I dunno. HELP.

Well, this might be it. I’m crazy in love and I can’t do anything about it. YET. I know I am one with the Greeks who believe in soul mates. I already know who mine is. I just need to wait for it. We can go play and do whatever we wanna do with our lives now. But some time, somewhat, somehow, I’m wishing that at the end of the road we are now travelling distance apart lays a road cropped by destiny for us to travel together. I hope. I wish. I love you though you don’t know.

I dare you to let me be your one and only. Promise I’m worth it to hold in hold your arms.

I know it’s a bit late for NY resolutions but nothings too late if you want to change for the better. For the past few days, I’ve been thinking about what my life will be this year and how I will achieve it. I’ve thought of big and not-so-big things. But hey, if you want something, you have to do steps (even small ones) to achieve your goal right? So here goes.

This year, I am planning to do the following:

•Get a tattoo. Planning to have one but haven’t decided where. I’m keloid-prone so I’m still thinking twice. Tatts mean no blood donations for the next two years. I can live with that. Here are my options, however, these are not the exact tattoos I am getting:

o Tattoo on my back

o Mercury tattoo on my ankles

o Stars behind my left ear

o Tribal tats on my left arm

•Enroll on my planned Graduate Degree. I was planning to save for a Master’s degree. I really wanna teach soon so I think I better start planning ahead. So why not start this year right? Here are the options I’m looking at:




•Go to at least two countries. Planning (again) to visit the following countries (at least two of them):
o Taiwan. Visit my mom. After sixteen years of living in Taipei, I think it’s about time for me to visit her.

o Indonesia. Go to Batam and/or Bali. Beach. Beach Beach Beach.

o USA. Go there to visit my mom’s best friend in New York.

o Thailand. Bangkok Bangkok Bangkok.

•Plan the personal business carefully before jumping to projects. This statement says it all.

•Reach my work’s requirements with at least 150% ROI. So far, pitches are going well so hopefully, things go according to plan.

Well, these are just small plans and as much as possible, will reach them all one by one. It’s a good thing that you have goals so that you have a guide on what you want to achieve. I can do this! :))



I know a guy who’s 21. He’ll turn 22 this year but believe it or not, he can say straight to anyone’s face that he has been through lotsa things: love wise.

It’s not everyday that you meet someone who was forced to grow up because he chose to live independently, away from all the good things in life, away from most people. No he didn’t went meditating on the mountains and stuffs like that. He just gave himself a safe distance from the people who love him. The reason? he’s afraid to get hurt. Some might say it’s stupid but it’s his own way of self preservation.

He’s afraid that giving up even a little part of him to these people will make them like him and ironically, after the drill, he assumes he’ll be hurt by them. He doesn’t know if it’s karma or whatever, but things can go awfully wrong most of the time for him.

I know he’s been through 3 serious relationships and of all this relationships, he’s always the one left hurting. I even see him staring on blank space sometimes. I know he’s lonely but I cant do anything to help.

What I like about him is that he never played with the three magic words. He doesn’t say it unless he mean it. So I know that the people whom he said these words to really felt love from him. I’ve been waiting for him to say those words to me, but I think that’s what he always forget. To say I love you to me. I know he does.

Honestly? He’s not bad looking, not that good looking either, I can say he’s average. But he believes that it’s the personality that comes first above anything. What good can a fair skin buff guy do if he treats you bad or if he cheats on you? He’d rather stay with someone who’ll be with him through the bad times rather than someone who’ll stay during good times but will leave him hanging on his worst.

I love his sense of humor. I love how he handles himself in public. I love how he speaks with people and how he makes them feel special. I love the piercing on his ears, his recognizable smile. But what I love most about him, is that he can write this post without even dropping a tear. 🙂


Posted: January 26, 2011 in JUST ME
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I was surprised earlier today when an unknown number called me. I answered it and was informed by a male voice that he has a parcel for me. I was puzzled what the package is since I didn’t order anything. Much to my surprise, it was from my mom:

I was really happy since she told me that she’ll be informing me if it was picked up already. But she didn’t. My mom is the most thoughtful person I know. She wants me to have and try things which she has tried herself, even the little things. You’ll know what I mean after you see the things inside the box.

The box has these:

New Lativ Shirts:

and 2 pairs of shorts:

some snacks:

and a can of veggie snack (which actually looks like a bottle-full of petrified veggies)

Noodles and Pancit Canton ala Taiwan.

zoom in: her notes:

She sent me these Japanese bracelets too! I think it’s a health bracelet thingy.

She sent me two pairs: a silver and a gold one. It’s a bracelet with a ring.

It also has an authenticity card which is really cool.

Of all the things inside the box, this is actually what I am looking for: my ITCH MEDICINE.

I’ve itches all over my body because of my allergy. I tried looking for it here in Singapore but I cant find any. So I asked her to send me 2 boxes but she sent me more than what I’ve asked from her. I looooove my mom.

Wanna know how sweet she is? I told her I love Patrick Starr sooo much, she sent me this Spongebob and Patrick Calendar.

And since she can’t find any Patrick Starr pen, she sent me this instead:

Isn’t she the sweetest? Oh, some photos of her that she sent me. She’s the one in white with the glasses: