When all else fail, I wont.
But I did: to myself.
Words flow inevitably but the right things dont fit coz something’s missing.
I did everything; searched for it, fought for it, but to my demise.
Maybe it wasn’t meant for me, I said.
I tried to be better than everyone but realized im doing it for all the wrong reasons: I should’ve been better for myself.
oh love.
Yes yes. I know. I haven’t posted anything for more than a month. It’s a very complicated month for me but it’s good that everything’s settled so here I am again, sharing random thoughts about the world as I see it. Anyhow, thanks for those who are emailing me, you know who you are guys)
After a very long wait, I am finally sharing this chronicle about my vacation in Bangkok, Thailand last June. I’ll be sharing a visual post so please spare me if you think it’s too long. 🙂
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While at Changi Terminal 2:
I am very fond of planes so when I was almost at the boarding gate, seeing the tarmac, i captured some photos of different carriers near our gate.
AIR ASIA:
CATHAY PACIFIC:
MYANMAR AIRWAYS INTERNATIONAL with another airline at the back:
TURKISH AIRLINES:
A POP AIR ASIA:
So me and my travel buddy, Ann, left Singapore past 5pm and arrived in Bangkok around 7pm, local time. We needed to ride a shuttle from the tarmac to the arrival gate because *INSERT REASON HERE* i have no idea. Good thing that when we arrived, cabs and travel companies doing tours can be easily spotted. Since we’re playing the tourist-adventurous game and I felt like Dora the Explorer that time, booked a reservation for a full city tour around Bangkok the following day. After that, we traveled around 45 minutes to our hotel and man, it was not what I’ve expected: It’s waaaay good than how the place look in pictures. It’s called Furama Xclusive-Sathorn along Silom Road, between Chong Nonsi and Sala Daeng MRT station. It’s not as five-star-ish like the MBS, but hey, for a three-star hotel, it’s not bad. Okay, that’s an understatement. Here are some clicks:
After dropping our things and after enjoying how beautiful our room is, we went to a Siam Square to search for dinner. We rode a TUKTUK:
Ended up eating at this noodle house named, well, NOODLE HOUSE:
The following day, we woke up early to go to the nearby market before preparing for our afternoon tour. Here are some snapshots:
It was actually funny coz the time we went there, it’s election season. I was surprised to see election posters like these:
I found out later that day that these posters are from an anti-government group asking people not to vote. Funny way to put it. 🙂
So for our afternoon tour, we went first to the TEMPLE OF THE GOLDEN BUDDHA. Was too busy taking pictures and forgot what our tour guide is telling us about this buddha. One thing I remembered: IT IS OLD. LOL
AFTER THAT, we went to the RECLINING BUDDHA.
Here’s a shot of the entire figure:
And these are the inscriptions on the foot. John told us something about the meaning of the inscriptions but again, I was too amazed to listen.
Here’s John, the tour guide by the way,
They also have this jars of coins. The mechanics: you need to buy 20THB worth of coins and then put it one by one to this 113 jars (im not sure) and then you’re supposed to make a wish after. Well I dont see any harm in trying so we tried it.
After that, we explored the area to see well, more buddha figures!
There’s even a spot where there are ancient teachings on how to do Thai Massage:
What I just love about the place is how the palace grounds made me feel. I felt im in their ancient civilization-or something to that effect.
Here are more photos of the place:
TO BE CONTINUED. 🙂
So after shifting to our new place, I have decided to get back to running. So last night, I geared up and started jogging again.
So I jogged for almost an hour on this route:
While jogging, I noticed this cute guy jogging in front of me. I ran passed him and while i walk and rested for a while, he ran passed me, then i ran passed him again , which happened for around 3 more times. When he ran and made a u-turn, we were able to see each other and i smiled a little. After that, just continued my running. So much for the first day.
But what surprised me was when i got home, someone familiar messaged me thru Grindr (Grindr is a mobile app that connects LGBT people to people who are near them). Look at our exchange of message:
So I was talking to him casually when he said:
AWKWARD. :))
Im feeling I’ll still see him on my next run. 🙂
Here I am again. Staring at a blank page. I don’t know where to start but there’s one thing I am sure of: after months, years of everything, I’m sure he’s the only one who can make me feel this way. We knew each other years back but were only given milimoments to talk. Life isn’t fair.
I’m changing for the better: one step at a time. After that night with him, (t’was months back) I know, it’s only him my heart beats for. Call me cheesy or whatever you want to but hey, I’m struck by love’s arrow. And I know no matter how many relationships he’ve had, I’ll still be here waiting for him. I know he doesn’t know about how strong my feelings are but hey, this is something real. I don’t care if he’s in a relationship now or if he’ll be in two or gazillion more relationships. I’m changing for the better: a better me, so that when I get back, he can at least have a reason to consider.
Oh shoot. I’m totally pointless. Or am I just really in love? I dunno. HELP. 
Well, this might be it. I’m crazy in love and I can’t do anything about it. YET. I know I am one with the Greeks who believe in soul mates. I already know who mine is. I just need to wait for it. We can go play and do whatever we wanna do with our lives now. But some time, somewhat, somehow, I’m wishing that at the end of the road we are now travelling distance apart lays a road cropped by destiny for us to travel together. I hope. I wish. I love you though you don’t know.
I dare you to let me be your one and only. Promise I’m worth it to hold in hold your arms.
I know it’s a bit late for NY resolutions but nothings too late if you want to change for the better. For the past few days, I’ve been thinking about what my life will be this year and how I will achieve it. I’ve thought of big and not-so-big things. But hey, if you want something, you have to do steps (even small ones) to achieve your goal right? So here goes.
This year, I am planning to do the following:
•Get a tattoo. Planning to have one but haven’t decided where. I’m keloid-prone so I’m still thinking twice. Tatts mean no blood donations for the next two years. I can live with that. Here are my options, however, these are not the exact tattoos I am getting:
o Tattoo on my back
o Mercury tattoo on my ankles
o Stars behind my left ear
o Tribal tats on my left arm
•Enroll on my planned Graduate Degree. I was planning to save for a Master’s degree. I really wanna teach soon so I think I better start planning ahead. So why not start this year right? Here are the options I’m looking at:
o MASTER OF ARTS IN COMMUNICATION (Ateneo)
o MASTER OF ARTS IN COMMUNICATION (La Salle)
o MASTER IN DEVELOPMENT COMMUNICATION (UP Open University)
o MASTER OF MASS COMMUNICATION (NTU Singapore)
•Go to at least two countries. Planning (again) to visit the following countries (at least two of them):
o Taiwan. Visit my mom. After sixteen years of living in Taipei, I think it’s about time for me to visit her.
o Indonesia. Go to Batam and/or Bali. Beach. Beach Beach Beach.
o USA. Go there to visit my mom’s best friend in New York.
o Thailand. Bangkok Bangkok Bangkok.
•Plan the personal business carefully before jumping to projects. This statement says it all.
•Reach my work’s requirements with at least 150% ROI. So far, pitches are going well so hopefully, things go according to plan.
Well, these are just small plans and as much as possible, will reach them all one by one. It’s a good thing that you have goals so that you have a guide on what you want to achieve. I can do this! :))
SALUTE!
I know a guy who’s 21. He’ll turn 22 this year but believe it or not, he can say straight to anyone’s face that he has been through lotsa things: love wise.
It’s not everyday that you meet someone who was forced to grow up because he chose to live independently, away from all the good things in life, away from most people. No he didn’t went meditating on the mountains and stuffs like that. He just gave himself a safe distance from the people who love him. The reason? he’s afraid to get hurt. Some might say it’s stupid but it’s his own way of self preservation.
He’s afraid that giving up even a little part of him to these people will make them like him and ironically, after the drill, he assumes he’ll be hurt by them. He doesn’t know if it’s karma or whatever, but things can go awfully wrong most of the time for him.
I know he’s been through 3 serious relationships and of all this relationships, he’s always the one left hurting. I even see him staring on blank space sometimes. I know he’s lonely but I cant do anything to help.
What I like about him is that he never played with the three magic words. He doesn’t say it unless he mean it. So I know that the people whom he said these words to really felt love from him. I’ve been waiting for him to say those words to me, but I think that’s what he always forget. To say I love you to me. I know he does.
Honestly? He’s not bad looking, not that good looking either, I can say he’s average. But he believes that it’s the personality that comes first above anything. What good can a fair skin buff guy do if he treats you bad or if he cheats on you? He’d rather stay with someone who’ll be with him through the bad times rather than someone who’ll stay during good times but will leave him hanging on his worst.
I love his sense of humor. I love how he handles himself in public. I love how he speaks with people and how he makes them feel special. I love the piercing on his ears, his recognizable smile. But what I love most about him, is that he can write this post without even dropping a tear. 🙂
I was surprised earlier today when an unknown number called me. I answered it and was informed by a male voice that he has a parcel for me. I was puzzled what the package is since I didn’t order anything. Much to my surprise, it was from my mom: 
I was really happy since she told me that she’ll be informing me if it was picked up already. But she didn’t. My mom is the most thoughtful person I know. She wants me to have and try things which she has tried herself, even the little things. You’ll know what I mean after you see the things inside the box.
The box has these:
New Lativ Shirts:
and 2 pairs of shorts:
some snacks:
and a can of veggie snack (which actually looks like a bottle-full of petrified veggies)
Noodles and Pancit Canton ala Taiwan.
zoom in: her notes:
She sent me these Japanese bracelets too! I think it’s a health bracelet thingy.
She sent me two pairs: a silver and a gold one. It’s a bracelet with a ring.
It also has an authenticity card which is really cool.
Of all the things inside the box, this is actually what I am looking for: my ITCH MEDICINE.
I’ve itches all over my body because of my allergy. I tried looking for it here in Singapore but I cant find any. So I asked her to send me 2 boxes but she sent me more than what I’ve asked from her. I looooove my mom.
Wanna know how sweet she is? I told her I love Patrick Starr sooo much, she sent me this Spongebob and Patrick Calendar.
And since she can’t find any Patrick Starr pen, she sent me this instead:
Isn’t she the sweetest? Oh, some photos of her that she sent me. She’s the one in white with the glasses:
I LOVE YOU MOM, I’M STILL YOUR LITTLE BOY AFTER ALL.
This will just be short.
To conclude my first week, finally, me and my friend MEE GORENG finally meet.
After a week of craving for it, yes, finally, I was able to eat it.
WEEK 1 was a SUCCESS!!
PS.
My hair color isn’t. haha
Im still sick. On medical leave for two days. Sad sad.
For the past two days, I’ve been eating just brunch plus one small meal at night. Thanks to my friends who are very supportive of me. To the people who are sending me messages and asking me for an update, here it is.
This is what I ate for brunch for this past three days.
DAY 4:
Went to the polyclinic and had a check up with Dr. Hia. After the check up, bought a take out (they call it TAKE AWAY here in SG) meal.
This pack has spicy squid, fried egg, string beans and sauteed potatoes. Yum.
DAY 5:
Had brunch at a hawker center and ordered this egg something. I think it has egg, garlic flakes and sugar. Yeah sugar, coz it tasted sweet. YUMMY.
YUMMY!
DAY 4 and 5: SUCCESS! 🙂
DAY THREE:
Woke up still a little sick. I hate this feeling. But gotta work.
Brunch for today: I actually want to eat Mee Goreng but unfortunately, the restaurant we went to doesn’t serve it until 4pm. Imma try it by tomorrow then.
Geez, i hate it. So ended up eating this vegetable cutlet with fries. Was kinda expensive. My housemate, Ivan told me that I was mugged up because of the price of the food. Hahaha
Look at the restaurant and the bill.
It’s kinda okay.
Didn’t finish the second piece but was able to eat the entire serving of fries. Yum. Anyhow, I wasn’t kinda hungry but look at what Ivan ate:
Food that can feed three people. Hahaha.
Third day, successful! 🙂
As promised, I’ve started my 30 Day Commitment into eating anything but meat.
Preparing for this day wasn’t actually hard. I’ve skipped meat meals and I’ve had greens as substitue to some meals.
Brunch: I ate Tuna-topped half cup rice. (Yeah, from now on, the foods I’ll be posting here are self-made names)
I tried thinking that it’s delish and surprisingly, it was. Like my very first taste of tuna. Smooth, spicy, very scrumptious, appetizing, and yeah, stop exaggerating, got it. It’s kinda good honestly.
Around 3pm, we’re quite jam-packed at the office. Some of my bosses went out and bought foods for us. Everyone’s ordering meat and chicken: from a fast food. Well hey, I want food from KFC too! So I ordered fries. Cheesy fries that is. Thanks Lynn. 🙂 First sin of the day.
Since we received our pay today, the guys and I went out on a budget shop. Where else to go? Chinatown. The rain didn’t stop us from looking around. I just wondered if the name of the place is still Chinatown because every establishment has a group of Caucasians, dining, buying and looking. What happened? Hahaha
So anyhow, I was able to find this:
An arm band so I can bring with me my phone when I am jogging. Adidas sells it for $45. Bought this one for $20. Nice deal right? It’s not branded but my keen observation says the difference is just the logo. So I bought it.
I bought this too. A Singapore name card holder so I can put my name cards in a decent stack.
What’s great about this name card holder, is that it comes with this:
A FREE NAILCUTTER! Where in the world can you find a deal better than this? HAHAHAHA. And that’s not all! It is a nailcutter-slash-can opener! Now beat that! Hahaha. No, kidding aside, Im just kinda goofy today, given my frustration.
Oh, before our budget shopping, we actually went to this place in Ann Siang Hill called Le Carllion for a hiatus. It’s a French Bistro with a very relaxing ambiance.
We ate Croque Monsieur and since it has ham on it, I just ate the salad and the bread on top with cheese.
What I like most about the place is the ambiance. The first floor actually is a fine bistro but what’s hidden one floor down is a very cozy sanctuary. This place actually gave me an idea on how to build my house. We even played a round of 8-ball.
I will kill to have this kind of space in my house. (Calling all friendly architects =] )
So after 3 hours of walking under the rain, we decided to come home wet. BBBrrrr it’s cold.
Tata!
Love,
B
PS. Im planning to try this Vegetarian place at The Verge tomorrow. It’s called VegSenz. I hope they’re serving delish stuffs. Will keep you updated.
If any of you guys in the Philippines know where I could find and buy this planner, please give me a buzz.
Saw this on Mitch Dulce’s blog.
I’d kill to have one. 🙂
Please Please Please.
I never get scared easily: last night was an exception.
Some friends and colleagues know that I have this gift of smelling, not seeing other life forms: last night turned out different.
I have been feeling unwell this past couple of days. Different things happened to me. Untimely head ache, and a lot of different aches on the other parts of my body. The last was a sprain that I already felt before jogging at night with my housemate. My bad, I still pushed through the running, which made the sprain worse.
Well last night, I was on my favorite spot on the other room on our place. As usual, speaking with my mom past midnight. This already happened before. I saw a white light pass through the window. I didn’t bother that time because I thought I’m just imagining things. It happened again last night. And this time, I was very sure of the vivid image I saw: an old woman staring at me. I was looking at my phone, head down and when I raised my head up and looked at the window, there she was, just beaming at me. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t even know what to think and how to react. The last thing I remembered was me going to the office telling my housemates not to stay on that room.
That was just the first straw. I was already lying on my bed, with the lights turned off, not thinking about what happened, when I turned on the other side facing the window and poof! There she was again. I almost screamed. But I didn’t. I stayed calm. What I did was to pretend not to see her and I just covered the window with a sleeping bag. Not a very bright idea, I know. But hey, I just want to sleep! So around 3 am, tried sleeping again, but I can’t. I didn’t know why. I was rolling around my bed for half an hour still trying to sleep. It was not until 4am that I remembered what my dad taught me. “HIM OM TI”, some Latin phrase which helps me calm down since I was a kid. Surprisingly, after I did it, I managed to sleep. And when I woke up this morning, I thought everything was okay, not until after seeing this mark on my tummy while I was bathing:
It was not there last night. Very odd. I don’t feel anything on the scarred area, any burn or sore feeling, nothing at all. It was just a scratch mark. And I feel weird. Well, I believe this is just ROUND 1. I hope this to stop soon coz it’s really freaking me out.
And here I am again.
Starting to do this.
I’ve had plans before, but I’ve accomplished nothing.
Well, maybe lost some pounds but gained more.
COMPARE THESE PICTURES:
ME: 2007
ME: 2010
SEE THE BIG DIFFERENCE?
I am not the same “ME” anymore.
I cant wear whatever I wanna wear now.
My peers know that I am always the “fashion guru”.
But now, I am more of a victim than a guru.
I miss the old me.
I really have to be serious about this.
Small steps at a time.
A. Lessen Fast Food intake
Please Mr. McDonald and Mr Long John Silver, please do not come near me. For the next couple of months, I need to let go of you. I know it’ll be hard for us, but I know, we can do this together. But we can see each other sometimes. Once a month isn’t bad right? I know we’ll miss each other: we have no choice.
B. Exercise Regularly
REGULARLY means DAILY, not once a week. If I can’t run in the morning, I’ll just take a one hour walk at night or a 30 minute jog. If I’ll do it daily, I think that’s enough. If I’m not feeling lazy, I’ll just increase the duration. Not bad right?
B1. Do at least 10 push ups daily
B2. Do at least 20 sit ups daily
C. Get enough sleep
According to my blood type diet guide, I should sleep no later than 11pm. But because of my work, I think I cant so I think, just set my clock until 12am max? Not bad eh?
D. Six small meals not three big meals
Since my work starts almost in the middle of the day (11am), eating time should be planned well. So here is my eating schedule (once every 2 hours) 12pm, 2pm, 4pm, 6pm, 8pm, 10pm. But that’ll still depend on my schedule. My target is SIX small meals. It might be less than that most of the time.
According to ABCWORKOUTS, there are six essential nutrients that our body needs in a daily basis. So I just have to get my daily doze of each.
WATER. Drink enough water everyday. Keep myself hydrated. I noticed that I’ve been missing water intakes this couple of weeks that’s why I was not feeling well that much. Since I was a kid, I’ve been using water as a medicine and as a source of energy. I rarely drink medicine when I’m sick, just water most of the time. So I think it would hurt if I do that again right?
CARBOHYDRATES Particularly Complex sugars such as pasta, bread and cereals. Well, that’s where I am getting most of my energy these couple of days. more potatoes baby! But not much, this is where most fats came from. Maybe a loaf or two a day and then some cereals. And by potatoes, unfortunately, i dont mean Fries. Hahaha
PROTEIN Meat, Fish, Eggs and Milk. I drink milk most of the time. So I got this covered. Eggs, well yeah. Meat and Fish, once in a while I eat this.
FATS Polyunsaturated fats. Not Saturated fats. This can be found on fish oils. Most canned tuna has fish oils. My favorite! Should stack more tuna!
VITAMINS AND MINERALSBut how? Vitamins? As in meds? Vitamin C? Fruits? I should figure this out soon.
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I prefer starting this on a Monday. So I’m giving myself November 8 to start. Completion should be early February. Wooo. I can do this.
I’ll keep this Diet Diary up to date as much as possible.
Love,
B
I SUPER DUPER LIKE HER!
The video is really inspiring!
=)
Well I should’ve done this last June. But since I’m too lazy, I did not. Hahaha And since a soul named Williewizzy asked me what my progress is, I have no choice but to update this post. (Kidding!)
I’ll be rating this 1 to 10 and then sum up the total to see my progress.
1. save MORE. SPEND less.
(Do I even need to explain this? Well, it’s been my plan to open up a third bank account for my savings, but as of writing time, still, no progress, so for this year, this is a MUST.)
8.00 > Yeap. Did this already, I have an OCBC account (SG). I can actually use this to save money but hey, I haven’t started tracking my expenses yet. Hahaha My bad.
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2. BE A VOLUNTEER.
(When I was still working on Expedia, me and some of my buds were planning to be a volunteer for PAWS. But we never had the time to do so. However, now that my schedule is not that tight, might as well use the time for service.)
2.00 > Points for effort. Too bad no time for that now.
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3. FIND MORE FRIENDS.
(As Melanie Marquez puts it, THE MORE, THE MANIER)
10.00 >I never fail to add more on my friends list. I am Mr Congeniality you know.
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4. BE MORE DEDICATED WITH WORK.
(Sometimes I feel that there are things that I could’ve done to improve on my job. This year, I’ll make it to a point that everything I do will be flawless )
10.00 >I am. I exert my 10000% on the things that are assigned to me and I always make it to a point to run an extra mile. You’ll never know where effort can lead you right?
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5. BE SERIOUS WITH MY SPANISH CLASS.
(Yes fellas, I am actually taking up Spanish class. Mejorare mas en mis lesiones espaniolas.)
0.00 > FAILED. Total Fail. Zero. Zero. Zero. I might change this to Mandarin. Hahaha
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6. JOIN A TV GAME SHOW.
(Just for the pure heck of fun.)
10.00 > I did. However we lost. Hahaha Well, like what I’ve said, just for the pure heck of fun. Enjoyed it though. Here’s the link:
PINOY HENYO
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7. GO OUT OF THE COUNTRY AT LEAST TWICE THIS YEAR.
(May it be with work, or a vacation to my mom’s or my granny’s place will do. I’m still crossing my fingers.)
6.00 > Well, Im in Singapore now and my friends and I are planning to go to Malaysia before this year ends. That counts as two right? Yey! Almost accomplished!
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8. LESS FLIRTING.
(Well, I actually lessened it already. Konti pa)
6.00 > Hmmm. I’m a six outta ten here. Still not failed. Hahaha It’s just that the right guys isn’t there yet. Poor me.
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9. ADD MORE BOOKS TO MY COLLECTION.
(Love seeing ‘em books on my rack home and on my unit)
10.00 > Yeah. I think I already bought like a hundred books since January this year. That’s a lot right? More!
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10. LOVE PURELY.
(Im single for like 10 months now so this ain’t a problem. I know the difference between love, sex and infatuation so this won’t be hard for me)
10.00 > I don’t know how to rate this. But since I know how to do this, I’ll give myself a perfect score. Coz I didn’t engage into a relationship this year yet. Again, not the right time. =(
82% out of 100. NOT BAD EH? It might still go up.
Imma update this by December and compare it to my 2011 resolution maybe?
KUDOS TO ME!
I’ll be leaving later this day for Singapore.
Hello Merlion, good bye (for the mean time) friends!
I know y’all are gonna miss me, but i’ll be missing you guys more!
Quite a big leap for me. This move really makes me crazy.
But hey, it’s for my career so what the heck, just go with the flow!
Imma see you guys real soon!
I CANT TALK ABOUT IT NOW
everything’s a disaster
I AM STARTING TO DO THE COUNTDOWN FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
It seems that I am not looking forward for anything.
My friends are not attending to the party that i’ve plan: MORE TIME FOR MYSELF.
Got no one to be with: MORE TIME FOR MYSELF.
Am on leave on my birthday: MORE TIME FOR MYSELF.
Isn’t that great? MORE ME-TIME.
I’d rather disagree. I’ve had plenty of me time before.
It’s just now, im turning 21, I have a wider perspective about things, specially the serious ones.
So since I have lots of ME-TIME, I’m planning to do a BIRTHDAY BLOG.
Whaddya think?
Any suggestions?
LISTS? TOP PICKS? ADVENTURE?
Hit me with your best shot!
CHEERS!
B
THOUGHTS OF A RANDOM AUTARKIC SOUL 