I’m longing for your skin to touch mine.
I wonder why I’m still here;
Maybe, I’m
Hoping all this hurt’s gonna end
That I can genuinely smile soon
Maybe, if
You and I are together
That we’ll be happy forever
Maybe, then
Only then, will I
Feel complete and contented
Maybe, but
it’s just a maybe.
Maybe not.
When all else fail, I wont.
But I did: to myself.
Words flow inevitably but the right things dont fit coz something’s missing.
I did everything; searched for it, fought for it, but to my demise.
Maybe it wasn’t meant for me, I said.
I tried to be better than everyone but realized im doing it for all the wrong reasons: I should’ve been better for myself.
oh love.
My mind wanders to a vast empty void.
No stills, no light, no nothing.
Am I dead?
Or is this just the cruel feeling of being love.less?
Spare me, light an ember to this darkness inside
Coz I’m always the one who needs to hide: this
misery that’s devouring me, I can’t
take no more
Come now,
Before black envelopes me.
I just want to speak up. I know I’m just one voice, I know but heck, I’ll still do my part. If you’re not interested, just move on with your life, I ain’t stopping you. But if you decide to read on and has something to say, then yes, by all means, please comment and share your sentiments. And Rants.
Dear Madam Congresswoman,
How are you?
I hope you’re feeling better so you can face the consequences of your evil-doings. Well, it’s not only the administration who want you behind bars; people living in poverty, people whose family members died because of you, those who accepted election-cash and regret what they did eventually, those who suffered from your administration’s tyranny, let’s say, almost everyone madam, your ex-colleagues included, want the same.
I may not be entirely knowledgeable about the law but I am feeling that there’s something right happening. I salute Secretary de Lima for doing what she thinks is right, even at the expense of her career. She got enough balls so no, Attorney Topacio, we don’t need yours, thank you.
This has opened up different views and issues, specially the ones that your camp is making when in fact, the real issue has gone waaaay behind. What Im trying to say is, it’s not about your Right to Travel or your Right to get ample medical treatment anymore, it’s about you facing trial from what you did, it’s about the Right of every Filipino who have suffered from your government’s oppression. It’s payback time madam.
I can still remember the time when you’re newly appointed, I was a big supporter. I even argue with my friends who badmouth about you. I guess we all make mistakes.
When you left your throne I knew you’ll do whatever it takes to get it back. I know you are trying your best. Parliamentary system? Cha-cha? Didn’t work, right? And when your supporters felt that you’re losing grip, and that the power is shifting, well, madam, where’s their loyalty now? You see, it’s not always about you, sometimes, we will reach a point where it’s a dead end and there’s nothing we can do but face what we’re running from. In your case? It’s the law maam.
I salute your PR team for covering for you for the last couple of years but madam, they can only do so much. I pity Bautista-Horn coz I believe she’s a great asset but unfortunately, she’s on the wrong side of the fence. Yesterday, it’s a bone-problem, today, it’s colitis, what’s for tomorrow? Cancer? HIV? I dunno, I’m just wishfully thinking. You know, as someone who has studied public relations, I have the idea what your people needs to do: cover up for you. But there’s one problem madam, the more sickness and loopholes they say this issue has, the more they create, the bigger credibility you and your team is losing. So think again. And your (READ: PAID) supporters who picket outside St. Luke? WHO THE HELL ARE YOU KIDDING?
Im so sorry I voted for you, one of the worst mistakes I did. But even If I didn’t, I know you have your ways to win. I’m just hoping for the Filipino people (and the government) not to give up getting the truth out, to give what’s due to you, to put you behind bars. You have your rights, what about ours? Well, after all, it’s our rights that were violated first.
Enjoy your remaining time being a free-woman. The clock is ticking.
Regretfully yours,
Brixx
THOUGHTS OF A RANDOM AUTARKIC SOUL 