Archive for July, 2011

Dear love,

I know I haven’t met you yet, or if we had the chance to meet before and just need to part ways, this letter is for you. I am in my room now, looking at the stars, thinking about how beautiful this night is and how more beautiful it could be if you are beside me. But I’m not in a hurry to meet you, take all the time you want. I know if the time is right, we’ll have more moments like this: more nights to see, more feelings to share. I know now, that patience is my best weapon, against wearying, against loss of confidence, against everything.

While you are gone, I am learning to love myself so when you arrive, rest assured that I can be yours wholly. I am not perfect, but I will try to be the best for you so both our wait will not go to waste. I can’t promise to be with you forever, but I will stay until life allows me to.

You might say I’m cheesy but no, everything I’m writing comes from my heart for you, whoever you are. I know I deserve you, and deep in my heart I know Im worthy of your time, your feeling, your love. Our relationship will never be perfect, but it will be worth the while. We might not have the perfect life, but we’ll make it worthy of living: with each other.

So wherever you are right now, you are on the perfect place, perfect time, and somewhere down the road, our path will join and meet. I promise I’ll hold your hand and won’t let go.


PS. Please take care of yourself coz I wont be there for you, YET.

Run and Tell

Posted: July 14, 2011 in JUST ME
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So after shifting to our new place, I have decided to get back to running. So last night, I geared up and started jogging again.


So I jogged for almost an hour on this route:


While jogging, I noticed this cute guy jogging in front of me. I ran passed him and while i walk and rested for a while, he ran passed me, then i ran passed him again , which happened for around 3 more times. When he ran and made a u-turn, we were able to see each other and i smiled a little. After that, just continued my running. So much for the first day.


But what surprised me was when i got home, someone familiar messaged me thru Grindr (Grindr is a mobile app that connects LGBT people to people who are near them). Look at our exchange of message:



So I was talking to him casually when he said:



Im feeling I’ll still see him on my next run. 🙂

I am constantly looking at his Facebook page not just because I wanna know what he is doing but mostly because I want to see him go from IN A RELATIONSHIP to being SINGLE. I do not mean any harm, neither do i do something that stops him from whatever he wanna do. It’s just me, wishfully thinking.

Call me bad or whatever you want to. Hopeless romantic. I really dont know what got into me to be so much into him. Im sorry. I blurt nonsense things when I think about him. So imagine me talking to him (which happens rarely). I even have his memory inked on me. But I’m too shy to admit it because, I dont know, something is stopping me: even that, i do not know what. Stupidity, foolishness, whatever this may be, i know it’s because of one thing: LOVE. As J. Hudson puts it, If this aint love, tell me what it is.