DEAR BOY

Posted: December 19, 2010 in POETRY
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Dear Boy,

I feel lonely so I wrote a letter for you. I feel it is the right time for me to be happy again.Though I don’t look as good as Brad or Leonardo, the mole on my nose perfectly fits the space. I hope you would like me because I am me and not just because I am liked by the majority. Please also understand that I have tendencies in forgetting dates so spare me if I missed a special day.

Don’t expect me to play basketball like those gym-fit guys, I’m contented with cuddling and wrestling with you. I may not have the perfect body but I assure you, I am as healthy as Manny Pacquiao.

I pray that you’ll love me despite the fact that I am strong outside but the truth is I am shaking to death. Please understand that if I ask for your time, I just want to be with you.

I hope you don’t think I’m asking too much from you. I just want you to know the real me. I’m contented seeing you happy. I’m going to find you, so don’t go anywhere. Stay where you are, in time, i’ll reach you. By the way, my name is Brixx. I know we’ll meet soon.

Kisses,
B

PERFECT POET AWARD- WEEK 34

Posted: December 16, 2010 in POETRY

Writing is the air I need to breathe.
The blood that keeps me going.
But lately I’ve been doing stuffs and things
But I cannot stop, cannot stop writing.
When all these ideas on my mind are flowing.

HIDING ME

Posted: December 13, 2010 in POETRY
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I’ll go into hiding where you wont see me.
Where my shadows are pure darkness
Where my smile will be light
and my breath: life.

I’ll go into hiding and I will flee.
Like a caterpillar on a cocoon
I’ll hide inside
So your thoughts wont bother me
I’ll leave all the hurt, the misery
On floating people’s realm.
So that after the rain,
I can say that the rainbow removed my pain.

I’ll go hiding and lurk on somebody else’s erms
Where fishes are salmons and gems are diamonds.
I’ll go into hiding where I am nobody.
Unlike the butterflies, I need more time to be free,
Three months, give me three months,
And I will be me.

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees.

Ask me anything

if both of you are Monogamous and willing to risk it, why not? 🙂

Ask me anything

Victoria Island, Allen Northern Samar =)

Ask me anything

formspring.me

Posted: December 12, 2010 in formspring.me

Ask me anything! =)

SPOOKIEST NIGHT IN SINGAPORE

Posted: November 29, 2010 in JUST ME
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I never get scared easily: last night was an exception.
Some friends and colleagues know that I have this gift of smelling, not seeing other life forms: last night turned out different.

I have been feeling unwell this past couple of days. Different things happened to me. Untimely head ache, and a lot of different aches on the other parts of my body. The last was a sprain that I already felt before jogging at night with my housemate. My bad, I still pushed through the running, which made the sprain worse.

Well last night, I was on my favorite spot on the other room on our place. As usual, speaking with my mom past midnight. This already happened before. I saw a white light pass through the window. I didn’t bother that time because I thought I’m just imagining things. It happened again last night. And this time, I was very sure of the vivid image I saw: an old woman staring at me. I was looking at my phone, head down and when I raised my head up and looked at the window, there she was, just beaming at me. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t even know what to think and how to react. The last thing I remembered was me going to the office telling my housemates not to stay on that room.

That was just the first straw. I was already lying on my bed, with the lights turned off, not thinking about what happened, when I turned on the other side facing the window and poof! There she was again. I almost screamed. But I didn’t. I stayed calm. What I did was to pretend not to see her and I just covered the window with a sleeping bag. Not a very bright idea, I know. But hey, I just want to sleep! So around 3 am, tried sleeping again, but I can’t. I didn’t know why. I was rolling around my bed for half an hour still trying to sleep. It was not until 4am that I remembered what my dad taught me. “HIM OM TI”, some Latin phrase which helps me calm down since I was a kid. Surprisingly, after I did it, I managed to sleep. And when I woke up this morning, I thought everything was okay, not until after seeing this mark on my tummy while I was bathing:

It was not there last night. Very odd. I don’t feel anything on the scarred area, any burn or sore feeling, nothing at all. It was just a scratch mark. And I feel weird. Well, I believe this is just ROUND 1. I hope this to stop soon coz it’s really freaking me out.

Today, I don’t know what hit me.

Was it Marc Nelson’s half naked picture on POSITIVISM’s website?

Was it because I saw Jake Cuenca’s starring on a new indie film (HIV: Si Heidy, Si Ivy, at si V)?

Is it because I am jealous of the participants of Niccolo Cosme’s Project Headshot Clinic?

Or was it because i find Wanggo Gallaga hot?

I’ve thought about the reason and believe it or not, none of these choices became the reason why I’ve a change of heart.

Many people have been suffering from HIV-AIDS or some may know it as HIV or just plain AIDS. And most of them, hiding in shadows, inside their closets. And the number of people acquiring the virus is just increasing.

I told myself: WHY THEM? Why did this virus hit them? These beautiful people? Why not infect the criminals? The rapists? The corrupt? Why them? Well, I can say that these people (HIV positive) didn’t choose it. The virus chose them. Sad but true.

I know people who are Positive, but not on a personal level. When I see them, I see life in a different perspective. Imagine what they have to go through. May they be out or still hiding the sickness with them in their closets, they are still normal people, they deserve to be loved. HIV Positive (or lemme call them HIVP, want to do HVIP this acronym doesn’t match… any way) people should not be loved less. THEY SHOULD BE LOVED MORE. Carrying the infection doesn’t make them less of a person, or a son, a teacher, an actor or a mother. They deserve our love more than ever.

I know I’m just a small voice. Just a normal adolescent thinking out loud. But if more people like me would think the same, it wouldn’t be a hard world for HIVPs. If more people would just open their minds, extend their hearts, then it will be easier for them to fight the disease. Hiding it with them makes it even worse. They deserve love, they deserve us.

Be a Promoter of life!
Spread the LOVE!
Not the Virus!

STAY NEGATIVE, THINK POSITIVE!
www.positivism.ph

*i do not own the pictures, no copyright infringement intended*

BLANK DILEMMA

Posted: November 16, 2010 in POETRY
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Waiting for the words to fit
The song to sing
So I could describe the way I’m feeling.

Blank.
Neither good nor bad.
But blank is not a feeling
So I need to decide.

Thinking of you makes me ponder
How I love your smile, your laugh,
Wishing it’s forever.

But forever cannot be determined
Even our “together”
Seize the day, carpe diem or never

I don’t know, I don’t know.
I’m writing with the flow.
But when my day meets dark,
It’s the same dilemma where I lurk.

THE DIET DIARY

Posted: November 3, 2010 in JUST ME
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And here I am again.
Starting to do this.
I’ve had plans before, but I’ve accomplished nothing.
Well, maybe lost some pounds but gained more.

COMPARE THESE PICTURES:

ME: 2007

ME: 2010

SEE THE BIG DIFFERENCE?

I am not the same “ME” anymore.
I cant wear whatever I wanna wear now.
My peers know that I am always the “fashion guru”.
But now, I am more of a victim than a guru.
I miss the old me.

I really have to be serious about this.
Small steps at a time.

A. Lessen Fast Food intake
Please Mr. McDonald and Mr Long John Silver, please do not come near me. For the next couple of months, I need to let go of you. I know it’ll be hard for us, but I know, we can do this together. But we can see each other sometimes. Once a month isn’t bad right? I know we’ll miss each other: we have no choice.


B. Exercise Regularly
REGULARLY means DAILY, not once a week. If I can’t run in the morning, I’ll just take a one hour walk at night or a 30 minute jog. If I’ll do it daily, I think that’s enough. If I’m not feeling lazy, I’ll just increase the duration. Not bad right?
B1. Do at least 10 push ups daily
B2. Do at least 20 sit ups daily


C. Get enough sleep
According to my blood type diet guide, I should sleep no later than 11pm. But because of my work, I think I cant so I think, just set my clock until 12am max? Not bad eh?


D. Six small meals not three big meals
Since my work starts almost in the middle of the day (11am), eating time should be planned well. So here is my eating schedule (once every 2 hours) 12pm, 2pm, 4pm, 6pm, 8pm, 10pm. But that’ll still depend on my schedule. My target is SIX small meals. It might be less than that most of the time.

According to ABCWORKOUTS, there are six essential nutrients that our body needs in a daily basis. So I just have to get my daily doze of each.


WATER. Drink enough water everyday. Keep myself hydrated. I noticed that I’ve been missing water intakes this couple of weeks that’s why I was not feeling well that much. Since I was a kid, I’ve been using water as a medicine and as a source of energy. I rarely drink medicine when I’m sick, just water most of the time. So I think it would hurt if I do that again right?

CARBOHYDRATES Particularly Complex sugars such as pasta, bread and cereals. Well, that’s where I am getting most of my energy these couple of days. more potatoes baby! But not much, this is where most fats came from. Maybe a loaf or two a day and then some cereals. And by potatoes, unfortunately, i dont mean Fries. Hahaha


PROTEIN Meat, Fish, Eggs and Milk. I drink milk most of the time. So I got this covered. Eggs, well yeah. Meat and Fish, once in a while I eat this.

FATS Polyunsaturated fats. Not Saturated fats. This can be found on fish oils. Most canned tuna has fish oils. My favorite! Should stack more tuna!

VITAMINS AND MINERALSBut how? Vitamins? As in meds? Vitamin C? Fruits? I should figure this out soon.

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I prefer starting this on a Monday. So I’m giving myself November 8 to start. Completion should be early February. Wooo. I can do this.

I’ll keep this Diet Diary up to date as much as possible.

Love,
B

Thanks for the six people who voted for me.
I really appreciate it.

Sorry if I was not able to nominate,
work is taking much of my time.

But hey,
I’ll make it up to you soon.

Love,
B

YOU

Posted: November 1, 2010 in POETRY
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why should it be you,
that I run to?
when the world turn its back on me
when darkness covers my entity,
why should it be you, just you?

why should it be you
that I think of
when I am alone and lost
on the rainbow after the storm
should it really be you?

when someone talks to me about love
you’re the first though in my mind.
It’s just you.
Why should it be like that?
I don’t know.

You’re the best thing that’s happened to me.
Katy’s right.
Once you have tasted perfection,
Comparisons are easily done.
Well, nothing compares to you.

But I thought: everybody’s gone,
And everyone has moved on.
So why should it still be you?

I SUPER DUPER LIKE HER!
The video is really inspiring!
=)

BEST POET FRIEND AWARD

Posted: October 22, 2010 in POETRY

I would like to share this award with you guys.
You can give this to the people, who is, in one way or another, became your friends through poetry,
who is sipping the same cup of tea.
I hope these bonds stay strong and may we all continue inspiring each other.

Kudos to us!

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BEST POET FRIEND AWARD




You are new to me
And I’m the same to you
But
Words keep us bonded.
Ink makes us siblings.
And the passion that we’re having
Is as hot as the sun burning.



I WOULD PERSONALLY GIVE THIS AWARD TO THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE:
JINGLE
For being such an inspiration to everyone.
You can only do much.

JAMIE
For all the wise thoughts!
Thanks much!

GAYLE
For never failing to visit my page since I started joining the rally.
I appreciate it.

MOVING ON AND LETTING GO

Posted: October 22, 2010 in POETRY
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I hate it when I linger on the past.
But how can I forget the feelings that I once thought would last?

Is it my fault that I’ve loved too much?
Or is your heart really hard to match?

The memories that bring me back to you,
Are the same things that’s killing me too!

Happy to miserable,
Miserable to numb.
I wonder if death would be next?

It wouldn’t be a bad idea
to know that I’ll suffer less
But that will only prove
That I’d fail this test
The test of moving on and letting go

So please get out of my life
Coz it’s hurting me so.

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[This is my entry to THURSDAY POETS’ RALLY WEEK 31]
[I wish everyone a good time in reading this and other posts!]
HAPPY RALLY!

GRAVITY

Posted: October 10, 2010 in JUST ME
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This song is for you,
If you’re reading this, you know who you are.
This is my perfect love song.

FROM A DISTANCE

Posted: October 10, 2010 in POETRY
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I was actually inspired from watching a group of kids practice their dancing at the Singapore School of the Arts.
I am watching them and I realized something, so this composition sprung up.
Enjoy reading!

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Watching you from a distance
Seeing how you move,
seeing how you sway your hips,
how you pout your lips.

      Just the fact that I’m seeing you
      Is already a gift that cant be replaced

Watching you from a distance
Seeing how nice of a person you are
how smart you are
how lovely you are

      Just the smile on your face,
      keeps me want you more.

But

      Watching you from a distance
      makes me realize
      I am a no-one in your life now.
      Just a random guy with no existence.

UPDATE: NEW YEAR’s RESOLUTION

Posted: October 9, 2010 in JUST ME
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Well I should’ve done this last June. But since I’m too lazy, I did not. Hahaha And since a soul named Williewizzy asked me what my progress is, I have no choice but to update this post. (Kidding!)
I’ll be rating this 1 to 10 and then sum up the total to see my progress.

1. save MORE. SPEND less.
(Do I even need to explain this? Well, it’s been my plan to open up a third bank account for my savings, but as of writing time, still, no progress, so for this year, this is a MUST.)

8.00 > Yeap. Did this already, I have an OCBC account (SG). I can actually use this to save money but hey, I haven’t started tracking my expenses yet. Hahaha My bad.

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2. BE A VOLUNTEER.
(When I was still working on Expedia, me and some of my buds were planning to be a volunteer for PAWS. But we never had the time to do so. However, now that my schedule is not that tight, might as well use the time for service.)

2.00 > Points for effort. Too bad no time for that now.
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3. FIND MORE FRIENDS.
(As Melanie Marquez puts it, THE MORE, THE MANIER)

10.00 >I never fail to add more on my friends list. I am Mr Congeniality you know.
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4. BE MORE DEDICATED WITH WORK.
(Sometimes I feel that there are things that I could’ve done to improve on my job. This year, I’ll make it to a point that everything I do will be flawless )

10.00 >I am. I exert my 10000% on the things that are assigned to me and I always make it to a point to run an extra mile. You’ll never know where effort can lead you right?
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5. BE SERIOUS WITH MY SPANISH CLASS.
(Yes fellas, I am actually taking up Spanish class. Mejorare mas en mis lesiones espaniolas.)

0.00 > FAILED. Total Fail. Zero. Zero. Zero. I might change this to Mandarin. Hahaha
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6. JOIN A TV GAME SHOW.
(Just for the pure heck of fun.)

10.00 > I did. However we lost. Hahaha Well, like what I’ve said, just for the pure heck of fun. Enjoyed it though. Here’s the link:
PINOY HENYO
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7. GO OUT OF THE COUNTRY AT LEAST TWICE THIS YEAR.
(May it be with work, or a vacation to my mom’s or my granny’s place will do. I’m still crossing my fingers.)

6.00 > Well, Im in Singapore now and my friends and I are planning to go to Malaysia before this year ends. That counts as two right? Yey! Almost accomplished!
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8. LESS FLIRTING.
(Well, I actually lessened it already. Konti pa)

6.00 > Hmmm. I’m a six outta ten here. Still not failed. Hahaha It’s just that the right guys isn’t there yet. Poor me.
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9. ADD MORE BOOKS TO MY COLLECTION.
(Love seeing ‘em books on my rack home and on my unit)

10.00 > Yeah. I think I already bought like a hundred books since January this year. That’s a lot right? More!
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10. LOVE PURELY.
(Im single for like 10 months now so this ain’t a problem. I know the difference between love, sex and infatuation so this won’t be hard for me)

10.00 > I don’t know how to rate this. But since I know how to do this, I’ll give myself a perfect score. Coz I didn’t engage into a relationship this year yet. Again, not the right time. =(

82% out of 100. NOT BAD EH? It might still go up.
Imma update this by December and compare it to my 2011 resolution maybe?

KUDOS TO ME!

BROKEN COMPOSITION

Posted: October 9, 2010 in POETRY
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I feel like im a forgotten love song.
A lost melody
Everybody used to love the way my every word fit into every rhythm
How every line defines how they’re feeling.

But Im just a part of their memory now
The sort that’s intended to be left forgotten

And now Im recreating the rhythm, the lines, the words.
But before I can even let the world hear it, you held my sheets and tore me into bits.

And I dont know what I am now.

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THIS IS AN ACCEPTANCE POST FOR THE PERFECT POET AWARD ON WEEK 30 AND ALSO MY CONTRIBUTION TO THIS WEEK’s THURSDAY POETS RALLY.

http://thursdaypoetsrallypoetry.wordpress.com/2010/10/08/the-perfect-poet-award-4-poets-rally-week-30/

THANKS FOR NOMINATING MY POST LAST RALLY!

FAILURE:
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THIS WEEK, I NOMINATE THOUGHTS NOT LOST

THANKS!